Monday, January 26, 2009

happier than a bird


15 step








15 Step - Radiohead

looking back on old love, or lack there of.

So i'm 20 years old. Like any other girl my age, i'm still tryin to figure out myself. Who am i? I have no idea what I want to do for a living, and all I can worry about right now is whats the next song im going to learn on the guitar? What am I going to wear this weekend? How am I going to get out of this town I resent? Whats the next cd that will change my life? And in one way i am very different from every other girl... The last thing on my mind is a boy or a relationship. I'm not the sorority type of girl. I like doing my own thing with whomever i want. I dont like feeling obligated to hang out with certain people. I can entertain myself. I have lots of friends who are guys- but they only stick around long enough to realize that thats all it will ever be. I have no intentions of being in a relationship right now and maybe im crazy for it. I have never been one for relationships. I like hanging out and having fun. I have plenty of love in my life; I've got family, close friends that have my back and i've got theirs, and music. I have such a love and passion for music. But as for relationships, as soon as it starts to get serious, I get out. I've built this wall and I haven't yet met the person worth knocking it down. And for now, I'm ok with it.. Because i need to figure myself out before I can figure out someone else.