looking back on old love, or lack there of.

So i'm 20 years old. Like any other girl my age, i'm still tryin to figure out myself. Who am i? I have no idea what I want to do for a living, and all I can worry about right now is whats the next song im going to learn on the guitar? What am I going to wear this weekend? How am I going to get out of this town I resent? Whats the next cd that will change my life? And in one way i am very different from every other girl... The last thing on my mind is a boy or a relationship. I'm not the sorority type of girl. I like doing my own thing with whomever i want. I dont like feeling obligated to hang out with certain people. I can entertain myself. I have lots of friends who are guys- but they only stick around long enough to realize that thats all it will ever be. I have no intentions of being in a relationship right now and maybe im crazy for it. I have never been one for relationships. I like hanging out and having fun. I have plenty of love in my life; I've got family, close friends that have my back and i've got theirs, and music. I have such a love and passion for music. But as for relationships, as soon as it starts to get serious, I get out. I've built this wall and I haven't yet met the person worth knocking it down. And for now, I'm ok with it.. Because i need to figure myself out before I can figure out someone else.